Finally, No dream...Just the reality of us

I'm sitting here on the beach waiting...waiting to finally meet you...to finally dream what I been dreaming of to finally make into a reality.
I have soo much to say to you...a million times to apologize for how i can be a fucked up person.
I want to say I love you realistically instead of electronically. I want to be able to touch you, kiss you, feel your nice warm body as you shield yourself over my cold, dying heart. I could really just use one of your "It's going to be alright, all is forgiven, past is the past, but I'm going to be here forever to be the patch to heal your broken heart". Sometimes I wonder how you could love someone like me, how did you stay soo long and kept your patience when I would fuck up what we have, over and over again I would deceive what you thought we had was real and you would never budge, you would still be there. You always knew how to make me really feel...to really show my vulnerability in front of you. Just that one look and I would be a broken down mess...thinking to myself he is too wonderful for someone as heartless as me...I would want to push you away but you would come closer to hold me and never let me go until you felt for certain that I knew you would always and still remain my forever.
Here we are standing across from one another...beautiful pale moonlight shining on both of our hearts tonight...my resistance to run to you is breaking fast...so I give in and rush to you as if im running for my life, right into your embrace, holding me soo tight, tears rushing down, you hand running through my hair and me not wanting to ever let go.
" Is this real ?", I say
You say " It's as real as you want it to be".
I cry and say " kiss me, kiss me then I'll know its real".
You say " And if your dreaming ?"
I say " Then there is still no way in hell I am ever letting you go in this moment".
Then he kissed me. A kiss of longing, a kiss of fear, love, hunger, passion, pain it was all there.
I say " finally no dream, no clock to wake me up, no distance to long for you anymore. Just me, you and our reality of love long waiting to finally bloom".