Shine

‍‍‍‍‍‍‍We are the unborn stars of our own play  
on a permanent raincheck  
'cause it's always raining in our heads  
and I spend my days hiding backstage  
when all I want to do is hold an umbrella up to my fears  
and dare to shine
though I doubt anyone is watching  
when there are a billion stars in the sky tonight  
 
And I'd like to think I'm the master of my own destiny  
but I've always been a drifter  
nothing and no one could pin down for long  
 
And I wear my passions like I wear my clothes  
impermanently  
'cause I've never had enough faith  
to hold onto any dream  
long enough to see it become my reality  
 
I've got a list of failures so deep  
they'll drown me if I stare into that abyss  
I've got a list of successes  
I wear like an invisible denim jacket  
covered in the patches of indelible pride  
that'll you'll probably never get to see  
'cause I've never been good at wearing myself like the neon jacket  
I kinda wish I was
 
We are the unborn stars of our own play  
on a permanent raincheck  
'cause it's always raining in our heads  
 
So pass me an umbrella  
and maybe we can turn off the rain  
and let ourselves shine tonight  
 
© Indie Adams 2018