Never Return To Me

I never want to see  
Your face again
You're nothing to me  
You're not my friend  
You threw me away  
And didn't care how it hurt
Now I just want to see you  
Six feet in the dirt
 
Because you hurt me  
Like no one else ever has
And I can't take this pain  
Can't come back from the past  
I know who you are
I've known your kind all my life  
Your smile hides the hand
Where you hold the knife
And it doesn't bother you  
To plunge it deep inside
To make me bleed  
And laugh while I cry
 
I'm sick of everyone  
Always laughing at me
I want to kill them all  
So I can be free
And they can feel the pain  
That I've had to bear  
So they can see how much  
That I really cared
When they are left dying  
Like I am
When they are hurting  
And scared
 
So please take what I give
This disdain that I feel
For what you called love
Are the scars that don't heal
They're etched in my mind
And cut into my soul
In the place of my heart
Is a live burning coal
That never goes dim
Or cools down enough
To be held by another  
To feel or be touched
 
So go on your way
And never return  
I'll cast all your memories  
Like the ash from an urn
To be carried by winds
Far away from this place
Where the scattered remains  
Cannot bring back disgrace
 
Or the look in your eyes
Where there is nothing left
Of what we had or remind  
What should have been said
That to live and to love
Is a fight to the death
And nothing else matters  
Till your very last breath
 
But the war that was waged
Was against our own selves
It took everything we had  
Then sent us through hell
And that's where I am now
The home built by my hands
Alone and destroyed
Trying still to understand  
 
Yet I'll never see the end
Of what could have been
Because we cannot forgive  
The hurt and the sins
Committed over and over
And without regrets
Save only this one
That we ever met