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the meth diaries~the day to day
come smoke with me
I heard in my dreams
I saw my friends
I laughed and for a moment felt good
then I awoke suddenly
the cravings were there full force
I wanted some meth
I have no one to talk to
my husband wants it to just go away
the addiction issues I have
and I plotted in my mind
just go outside and smoke a little
he won't know
just a little meth
then echoed in my mind
just a little death
little deaths of me
still, I'm stuck in the day to day of things
as you know I used to write when I was high
I don't feel I'm writing as good
and it bothers me
I can't lie about that
I feel mundane now
where I used to feel superhuman
able to touch the gods
it could be my delusions
I don't know
I just want to cry
Published 16th Oct 2018
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16th Oct 2018 3:21pm
There will be an ebb and flow with your writing, some high some low...embrace it as a challenge...breathe in each word and release your soul
16th Oct 2018 3:23pm
thank you dearest Tim I will try and do that... it frustrates me I'm not used to it...I deeply appreciate such a beautiful and wise comment...
love Brenda 💕
love Brenda 💕
16th Oct 2018 3:28pm
The pieces we write show the variety in our persona..they won't all turn out to be "signature pieces" and that's just how it goes. Nice journal entry style.
16th Oct 2018 3:35pm
thank you beautiful Nari I will learn to cut myself some slack... damned if I'm not my harshest critic...
I deeply appreciate the love...
love Brenda 💕
I deeply appreciate the love...
love Brenda 💕
16th Oct 2018 3:42pm
Anonymous
16th Oct 2018 4:09pm
Crimmy!
Are you serious??!! Your writing is more beautiful than ever!!
It's you, Kiddo! You're the most beautiful part of your writing, not the drugs.
You're the best!
Hey, I know I'm not where you are, but you can always talk to me, and I'm sure there are others on here who feel the same.
Love you my friend! The cravings will end. You have to be you, because you is one of the finest people I've ever met!
Stay strong Crimmy, because you can, and you have to.
Love you,
Matthew.
Are you serious??!! Your writing is more beautiful than ever!!
It's you, Kiddo! You're the most beautiful part of your writing, not the drugs.
You're the best!
Hey, I know I'm not where you are, but you can always talk to me, and I'm sure there are others on here who feel the same.
Love you my friend! The cravings will end. You have to be you, because you is one of the finest people I've ever met!
Stay strong Crimmy, because you can, and you have to.
Love you,
Matthew.
16th Oct 2018 4:15pm
Anonymous
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Anonymous
16th Oct 2018 9:19pm
Beautiful Raven, your writing has never been about the drugs. It's about your expression and how you see through eyes no one else can. And it's no less potent without the drug. You... pure.. undiluted... this is a beautiful thing. I love you
...ever your Willow
...ever your Willow
17th Oct 2018 4:16pm
when we get high for so long and are so used to that cycle, just staying sober becomes a rush. Give it time my friend.
<3
<3
18th Oct 2018 9:45pm
A meth high can be inspiring but it's still a false boost. You write so beautifully without the assistance of the pipe and crystals. You wear sobriety extremely well, and I never tire of your reflections on the struggle. I had my own in the distant past and they still hit me to this day. Recovery seems to be an ongoing process.
