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Dying Inside
Why am I still breathing
I can't stop the tears
My heart has no piece
Without blackness
And hopelessness
I said I couldn't live
Like that
It wasn't living
But I'm dying inside
Trying to live
Like this
Been dying inside so long
How am I still here
Why am I still breathing
I deserve this
Deserve to die for being me
But I can't die
Because I'm still breathing
My temples are pounding
Because I can't stop crying
My body aches
From uncontrolled sobbing
I can't stop the tears
Why am I still breathing
I can't stop the tears
My heart has no piece
Without blackness
And hopelessness
I said I couldn't live
Like that
It wasn't living
But I'm dying inside
Trying to live
Like this
Been dying inside so long
How am I still here
Why am I still breathing
I deserve this
Deserve to die for being me
But I can't die
Because I'm still breathing
My temples are pounding
Because I can't stop crying
My body aches
From uncontrolled sobbing
I can't stop the tears
Why am I still breathing
Published 4th Oct 2018
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4th Oct 2018 2:47pm
Love the repeating questioning in this ... made me feel it ... bravo my poetess ...
4th Oct 2018 2:50pm
Anonymous
4th Oct 2018 2:57pm
Dear Meddy,
You're still breathing because many people love you, and count on you. This one hurts my heart.
You don't deserve bad things. You were my first friend on here, and I know you have a wonderful heart. You deserve great things, and once you get through what you're going through, they will come.
Hang in there, my friend!
Love,
Matthew.
You're still breathing because many people love you, and count on you. This one hurts my heart.
You don't deserve bad things. You were my first friend on here, and I know you have a wonderful heart. You deserve great things, and once you get through what you're going through, they will come.
Hang in there, my friend!
Love,
Matthew.
4th Oct 2018 3:12pm
Anonymous
4th Oct 2018 7:27pm
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5th Oct 2018 1:25am
4th Oct 2018 9:42pm
It hurts to read these words. We can only hope that you can write some of it out. We think that the DUP community will be there for you, and we will say a prayer
5th Oct 2018 1:26am
Yes, DU is my family. Beautiful people who I love so much and y'all are making me feel better with all your love.
26th Feb 2019 9:07pm
Reminds me of me when I was like eighteen and fell in love for the first time in my life with a handsome ex-military man who was twenty-three. He seemed so genuine and they way were together was so hopeful of working out for life even, but noooo.....he broke my heart and I fell apart, cried till I could not cry anymore, and would not go anywhere and I was a pitiful mess...Ugh...Loved this piece:)
26th Feb 2019 10:24pm
Thank you. Still in the middle of this. But not so sad anymore. Trying to find peace.
