Nothing Left

I'm eating I'm sleeping  
Everything I'm supposed to do
Waiting and anxious  
Where are you
 
You sent word
I'm still alive by the way
I was hoping you were
But where did you stay
 
Last night I was afraid  
Wanted you home and yet  
Worried if you came
Still afraid  
 
The fighting and arguing  
Drain me emotionally  
But the silence is deafening  
Don't know if you're  
Done with me
 
No way to go back  
No breadcrumb highway  
To lead that big truck home
Sitting here alone  
We can't go back
 
Too many miles and bridges
Crossed now all burned
Our hearts have turned  
Away to the winds
Tornadoes of our sins  
 
Ripped apart from each other  
Ripping apart our home
Only leaving scattered  
Fragments of memories  
Not worth enough  
To pick back up
 
Ya know, twelve years ago
I thought of all
The places we could go
But forever is for gods  
And we are only monsters