How Can I Compensate...?

Just between myself,
    and cosmic force
     this good fella agreed
to dedicate, postulate,
     validate, et cetera,
     what virtue thine parents fostered,
     (like a beach house child),
     sans within this sole son

     they did breed
allowing, enabling, and providing
     nonestablishmentarian
     beliefs, dogma and/or creed
dance clearwater revival,
and oft times did
     substantiate ethical paradigm
     with convincing deed

this keen awareness,
     (viz 20/20 hindsight)
     awoke of late
     (maybe last half dozen years)
     where family members of origin,
(NOT tubby confused
     with Oregon) did exceed
asper basic concerns

     dealing with a warm
     hearth and home freed
the requisite responsibility
     of me to support (or try)
     Matthew Scott Harris, where greed
(yes, this truth must
     be bluntly admittedly stated,
     no matter adult

     responsibilities shirked)
     yours truly flagrantly
     did not heed
and thus at this near
     three decade orbitz
     sol hymn lee cycled
     round the sun indeed
a sincere pursuit spurs this

     expressed objective keyed
via this 2009 MacBook
     Pro Laptop lead
ding me towards pro active
     game bit (gambit)
     under_scoring NO need
nor ulterior, interior, or exterior
     hidden agenda,

     and matter of fact
     accepting (NO MONEY
    down or up), no
     Apr, May, June...
     (absolutely) nothing,
     within whatever capacity,

     I (mutter hoof act)
     help at reo speed
wagon dog gone Mutt and Jeff,
     and if nothing materials
     aye thank ye taking thyme
     to peruse this wacky weed
(for reed dull.)