TOO SLOW REVERSE DISCARD (Of My Fucking Monster Narc)  (8-22-18,10:00am, Cathedral City Cove, California)

oh you
poor soul
lost
soulless soul
you leech
the breath
the life
the light
out of
any room
or other
life
you touch
or enter
out of
every space
you hold
you suck
and suffocate
until you
near completely
snuff out
the inner
radiance
of my
creative
free spirit
my joy
of life
until you
blow out
or at
least greatly
diminish
the brighter
flames
in the
more authentic
lives
hopes  plans
truths
and dreams
of any
and all
around you
wherever your
toxic beings
tightly masked
false presence
may come
and go
may stand
walk through
or pass
as all
truth
all goodness
all beauty
withers
wounded
to die
in the
unyielding cancer
in the
always destructive
malignant wake
of your
abusive path
for you
poor soul
lost
soulless soul
are a
true  living
inhuman monster
wearing only
a falsely
deceptive
thinly veiled
human mask
in a
desperate
futile attempt
to try
and hide
your own
deepest anger
self hatred
and loathing
beneath
and behind
all the
dishonest lies
the
well practiced
charm
ambition  success
and conning
charisma
of your
grandiose
exploitive ego
relentlessly deceiving  
using
taking  abusing
mercilessly destroying
without any
empathy
compassion  
nor heart
witout any
conscience
at all
absolutely anyone
everyone
in any
way
you can
to gain
whatever
you need
or may
want
from them
in the
further
poison empowerment
of your
cold
self centered
egomaniacal life
where the
only thing
in life
youll ever
truly
care about
is maintaining
the untreatable
incurable
pathological
mental illness
the hopelessly
inescapable
immutably pitiful
pathetically
sad  sad
destiny
which
is you
for you
only you
yourself alone
so tragically
forever alone
poor soullessly
accursed
and fated
lost soul
in which
the only
god
the only
universe
youll ever
come to
believe in
youll ever
come
to know
the only
sick
and twisted
faith
or love
youll ever
have and hold
the only
empty
toxic love
youll ever
come
to reap
and sow
is this
heartlessly delusional
omnipotent god
and malignant
center of
the universe
which you
yourself
wholly think
and believe
you are
for you
poor soul
poor
hopelessly lost
soulless soul
are the
living epitomy
the classic
textbook
case example
of a
true
extreme narcisist
who has
all nine
definitive layers
of diagnostically
characteristic
human
though more
inhuman
behavioral traits
down  with
all guns
firing
in catastrophic
spades
for i
of all
of this
oh
so well
do know
and woe
to me
for i
myself
perhaps alone
have been
your main
continuous source
of narcisistic
supply
for these
last
five years
of this
my
living nightmare
of this
my true
living hell
in this
my deceptively
lied to
strategically
stolen life
where i
have been
so demonically
imprisoned
yet
still here
even now
more woe
unto me
yet
for i
am still
in prison
here now
but hopefully
not for
too much
longer
for now
im just
biding
my time
but
no longer
walking on
egg shells
no longer
hating
nor cursing
you constantly
in my
head
and heart
silently  day
and night
no longer
allowing your
cancer like
negative resonance
to eat
my heart
my mind
my body
spirit
and soul
alive
from the
inside out
for now
i can
only
pity you
for you
poor soul
poor  lost
soulless soul
can never
change
dont want
to change
cannot
and never
will escape
from this
sad  sad
oh so
tragic
lonely  angry
hateful  empty
nowhere
hellish
toxic prison
of yourself
you  
your self
alone
poor soul
poor  lost
soulless soul
as i
continue
to wait  
here
in my
hard earned
hard learned
oh so
patient resilience
no longer
as helpless
hapless victim
but more
as passive
neutral witness
now
for this
lowest
dark tide
lesson
of my
life
to rise
up high
enough again
for me
to rise
up higher
with it
in return
to sail
away
at so
long last
back out
into
the golden
freeing
radiant  healing
open sunshine
of my
true
autonomous
life and
light