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loser
inside my want, I stumble
the greed in me burns with a passion
I feed its lust
and still, it's hungry
it never dies just keeps on taking
I am a failure
the devil knows me
his arms outstretched
when I'm down and lonely
he takes me back without question
he knew I would come home
it was just a matter of time really
falling back I cry
"I hate you!"
he says
"that's okay it's not your love I'm after"
"your loyalty is all I require
you've been faithful"
"you wear the colors
of the downtrodden"
"tell me, child
why doesn't your God save you?"
"welcome back loser"
Published 7th Jul 2018
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Anonymous
7th Jul 2018 2:54am
Raven, this is so powerful.. i know the pain.. of the feeling of being owned.. and questioning worth.. but we are fucking strong.. this is a human playground.. we make the rules, not them.. i'm ready to be judged, because all doctrine seems false.. we must fight.. much love, and respect..
Dave
Dave
7th Jul 2018 2:59am
thank you dearest Dave my brother you are fine I don't believe anyone will be finding otherwise.. do what you do speak truth..
I love you..
me
I love you..
me
7th Jul 2018 11:45am
""I hate you!"
he says
"that's okay it's not your love I'm after"
"your loyalty is all I require
you've been faithful" "
fuuuck that is the truth.. idk what you think about 12 step programs, but this poem really resonated with me.
"I hate meetings.
I hate your higher power.
I hate anyone who has a program.
To all who come in contact with me,
I wish you suffering and death.
Allow me to introduce myself...
I am the disease of addiction.
Alcoholism, drugs and eating disorders.
I am cunning, baffling and powerful. Thats me!
I've killed millions and enjoyed doing it.
I love to catch you by surprise.
I love pretending I'm your friend and lover.
I've given you comfort.
Wasn't I there when you were lonely?
When you wanted to die, didn't you call on me?
I love to make you hurt.
I love to make you cry. Better yet...
I love it when I make you so numb,
You can't hurt and you can't cry.
You feel nothing at all.
I give you instant gratification.
All I ask for in return is long term suffering.
I've always been there for you.
When things were going right, you invited me back.
You said you didn't deserve to be happy.
I agreed with you.
Together we were able to destroy your life.
People don't take me seriously.
They take strokes seriously.
They take heart attacks seriously.
Even diabetes, they take seriously.
Yet, without my help, these things wouldn't be possible.
I'm such a hated disease, yet I don't come uninvited.
You choose to have me.
Many have chosen me, instead of love and peace.
I hate all of you who work a 12step program.
Your program, your meetings, and your higher power weaken me.
I can't function in the manner I am accustomed to.
I am your disease.
For now I must lie here quietly.
You don't see me, but I'm growing more powerful everyday.
When you settle for mere existence, I thrive.
When you feel fully alive, I weaken.
But I'm always here waiting for you.
Until we meet again,
I wish you continued suffering and death."
Author Unknown
he says
"that's okay it's not your love I'm after"
"your loyalty is all I require
you've been faithful" "
fuuuck that is the truth.. idk what you think about 12 step programs, but this poem really resonated with me.
"I hate meetings.
I hate your higher power.
I hate anyone who has a program.
To all who come in contact with me,
I wish you suffering and death.
Allow me to introduce myself...
I am the disease of addiction.
Alcoholism, drugs and eating disorders.
I am cunning, baffling and powerful. Thats me!
I've killed millions and enjoyed doing it.
I love to catch you by surprise.
I love pretending I'm your friend and lover.
I've given you comfort.
Wasn't I there when you were lonely?
When you wanted to die, didn't you call on me?
I love to make you hurt.
I love to make you cry. Better yet...
I love it when I make you so numb,
You can't hurt and you can't cry.
You feel nothing at all.
I give you instant gratification.
All I ask for in return is long term suffering.
I've always been there for you.
When things were going right, you invited me back.
You said you didn't deserve to be happy.
I agreed with you.
Together we were able to destroy your life.
People don't take me seriously.
They take strokes seriously.
They take heart attacks seriously.
Even diabetes, they take seriously.
Yet, without my help, these things wouldn't be possible.
I'm such a hated disease, yet I don't come uninvited.
You choose to have me.
Many have chosen me, instead of love and peace.
I hate all of you who work a 12step program.
Your program, your meetings, and your higher power weaken me.
I can't function in the manner I am accustomed to.
I am your disease.
For now I must lie here quietly.
You don't see me, but I'm growing more powerful everyday.
When you settle for mere existence, I thrive.
When you feel fully alive, I weaken.
But I'm always here waiting for you.
Until we meet again,
I wish you continued suffering and death."
Author Unknown
7th Jul 2018 12:44pm
thank you dearest Brad for sharing that with me I think I needed to hear that...
love Raven
love Raven
7th Jul 2018 1:30pm
7th Jul 2018 1:57pm
7th Jul 2018 2:17pm
thank you dearest Poet I agree
and honestly the phene in me balked
hearing about the steps at all...
but I'm glad he said it...
love you...
me
and honestly the phene in me balked
hearing about the steps at all...
but I'm glad he said it...
love you...
me
7th Jul 2018 4:28pm
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