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entry two remembering the past
I tend to tell myself time and time again that ill be okay that ill be fine that i'm still young that i still have time.i feel so anxious so afraid that ill lose the roof over my head. i think about the last four years my real story started out when i was 18 i ran off with someone i thought i knew and ended up running off with an abusive meth head living in an unstable drug house with no spoons and cat shit on the floor. Wearing shower shoes in the shower because i was afraid id get hepatitis. being physically and mentally abused and almost killing myself off. Now here i am 22 with a loving boyfriend and getting my life together so why am i so scared? i'm just trying to get my life together so why am i so scared?
Published 27th May 2018
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27th May 2018 11:57am
Nice prose poem - and your reaction is perfectly understandable - I hope you put things behind you and roll on to a happy life together - hugs.
27th May 2018 3:46pm
Been there, done that....when I was young. It's a bit of PTSD you might have there. Good you are in better condition now. It will help to write about it.
Love to you.
Love to you.
31st May 2018 8:51am
31st May 2018 2:25pm
You might want to get some help...just a suggestion...
I have anxiety sometimes and I had some nasty panic attacks in the past. You don't want to get stuck in that. Check out a book by Barry McDonagh...DARE it is called.
The method works for me and it goes deeper than just " managing" the problem.
I have anxiety sometimes and I had some nasty panic attacks in the past. You don't want to get stuck in that. Check out a book by Barry McDonagh...DARE it is called.
The method works for me and it goes deeper than just " managing" the problem.
