strange girl

 
my internal ache won't fade
it hurts to be the strange girl
that people see
but never really listen to

bipolar mania keeps everyone at a distance
no one wants to be associated
with the crazy lady who hear's voices

I try so hard to blend in
it doesn't work
there's just something different about me

I laugh at the same jokes
but I laugh too loud
causing some to stare

I clap with the beat of the world
always out of rhythm
for the life of me I can't seem to get it

then there are my internal tormentors
who point out all my flaws
what's wrong with you girl
why can't you just get along?

laughing at my imperfections
that glare in their cruel light
I struggle to fit knowing I never will

I ask myself when will you get it right?

keep to yourself
you're much better off
but I never listen

always getting in over my head
when it comes to people

I'm not asking you for your pity
just look at me and see my heart
it is quite something, really