An Exposure

Could I ever be trusted?
I would say probably not
I am meerly an actor
It's not lessons I forgot

It's my contempt
It's always wondering
Is it worth it at all?
It's the dark pondering

It's the shocked faces
Scattered about
It's the sad voices
It's a heart of doubt


My darkness is surrouding
In grey stormclouds
My heart is now pounding
My thoughts are too loud

Every nightmare replaying
My stomach turns
I've become my fear
I hope I someday learn

I suppose I can only
Look you in the eyes
Completely exposed
And attempt to apologize