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What am I?
March 28 of 2018
March 27 of 2018
March 21 of 2018
What do these days have in common?
Same Year
Same Month
Same 20 Date
Many similarities if you think about them
However what do these days mean?
Birthdays, Events, and etc etc etc
To me ...
These were the days I thought I was going to die
No tragedy happened, mind you
No secret plot
No second meaning
Nothing Religion Related
Simply, it is the way I thought
March 28 of 2018
The Date that was chosen when I was 10 to 12
March 27 of 2018
12 to 14
March 21 of 2018
14 to 15
... April 22 of 2018 ...
When March ended and I was still here
Something clicked in me
A hidden call of depression I assume
Every day lead on with unknown dread
Growing as a new day started
And on April 29 of 2018
I turn 16
... why am I not looking forward to it?
Not of fear, or lack of knowledge of the future
It is merely the thought
That I lived a life of 15 years to the fullest I could
And felt truly older than I should be
I am 15
I feel older
My 16th birthday is what I'm terrified of
Terrified, yet not afraid
Hard to describe
Yet, harder to understand why
Dread follows me everyday
Headaches upon headaches
The fun living smile child my family once seen
Is now turning odd and very distant
... I don't want to hurt others
What am I?
March 27 of 2018
March 21 of 2018
What do these days have in common?
Same Year
Same Month
Same 20 Date
Many similarities if you think about them
However what do these days mean?
Birthdays, Events, and etc etc etc
To me ...
These were the days I thought I was going to die
No tragedy happened, mind you
No secret plot
No second meaning
Nothing Religion Related
Simply, it is the way I thought
March 28 of 2018
The Date that was chosen when I was 10 to 12
March 27 of 2018
12 to 14
March 21 of 2018
14 to 15
... April 22 of 2018 ...
When March ended and I was still here
Something clicked in me
A hidden call of depression I assume
Every day lead on with unknown dread
Growing as a new day started
And on April 29 of 2018
I turn 16
... why am I not looking forward to it?
Not of fear, or lack of knowledge of the future
It is merely the thought
That I lived a life of 15 years to the fullest I could
And felt truly older than I should be
I am 15
I feel older
My 16th birthday is what I'm terrified of
Terrified, yet not afraid
Hard to describe
Yet, harder to understand why
Dread follows me everyday
Headaches upon headaches
The fun living smile child my family once seen
Is now turning odd and very distant
... I don't want to hurt others
What am I?
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