Thougths of You

It’s after midnight and thoughts of you surround me like a thick forest. The more I think of you the thicker it gets.

A smile crosses my face as I recall the sound of your voice  in my heart first then my ears. The deep sound of a grizzly bear hearty, strong and gentle all at once.

I softly hear you call my name and the familiar phrase of “come here doll let me talk to you for a moment”.

Like the automatic switch of the air conditioner coming on my tears begin to flow on cue as I realize the phrase will from now on will only be a memory of you.

As my stream picks of speed and is now a waterfall coming from my eyes and I will it to stop but nothing happens.

How will I survive without you.  All of my blue skies are grey and my sun doesn’t shine at all.

My tear soaked t-shirt brings me back to reality as the cold wet shirt touches my skin.

Your hearty laughter always brought me such joy deep down in my soul. Confirming you were still with me.

 Slowly your laughter was only this beautiful smile until only your eyes held the promise of your laughter.

I miss you so very much. More than my words could ever convey. More than the ocean of tears I cry that cover the earth.

The last time I heard your voice you said “remember I love you forever and always. Never forget”. I never will daddy.

I love you forever and always.