A Life Numb

 
I haven't been myself lately
Numbing myself of pain maybe
I'm young and it's still  early
But the world's not as young sadly
It's cold and like a maze
Warm and like the rain
It comforts and it ruins
Sometimes stays or slowly fates
Like memories of a melody
Delights but it ends
You hold on you lose
You snooze you lose
There's no right doing or wrong
But a journey to be strong
It's an ongoing battle
With a quest to settle
And it gives no medals
You just continue to paddle
With the hopes to win
Even when it gets dim