Almost....

I almost died...
Okay, well that sounds a bit dramatic.
But I felt as if I were going to die.

It was honestly an accident.
I was drunk.
I wasn't thinking.
I had a really bad headache.
The pills were prescription strength,
But they were just tylenol.
How bad could they be?

I wake up in a few hours,
Sicker than I have ever been before.
I can tell something is seriously wrong...
But I can't say anything,
I can barely stay awake long enough to puke,
Then I am back down again.

The next night they realize I am really sick,
Not just a nasty hangover.
I am dragged to the hospital.
I am confused,
I am sick,
I just want to sleep.
I just want it to stop.

I'm in my early twenties...
I shouldn't have to go through this,
I shouldn't have to hear those words...

My liver is failing.
AST levels are 60 times higher than normal,
I may need a transplant...

Hospitals...
First the ER,
Then a transfer to the ICU,
A bigger place two towns over.
IVs and machines run to my arms,
I am basically attached to my bed.

They send me to another hopstial,
One where they can do transplants if need be.
I don't get to eat,
I can't even have water,
Just bag after bag attached to the IVs,
Pushing life back into me.

N-acetylcysteine
That's what saved me.
After five days confined to my bed,
And NAC flowing constantly,
My liver is healing.
No transplant needed.

I thought I was going to die,
Then I thought I was going to be sick for a long, long time.
And now they're telling me that I might be alright?
That I could completely heal,
And everything might be fine?

It's been an emotional rollercoaster,
And now that I am home,
I have to readjust to normal life.
But I have had some time,
To reevaluate what I want to do,
And who I want to spend forever with.
I know for sure,
I want to keep going,
To keep living my life,
To keep loving Brandon,
To keep working towards getting my education,
To keep moving on with reality...

And I got to learn all of this,
Because I almost died...