No Longer Myself

No Longer Myself..
But I Look Fine To Everyone Else..
They Don't See The Pain..
They Don't See The Tears Mixing With Rain..
They Don't See That I Have Nothing To Gain..
They Don't See That Inside I'm No Longer Sane..
They Don't See The Things That Run Through My Brain..
But I See Everything That Has Began To Change..
I See Everything Start To Fall Out Of Range...
I See The Things That Use To Be Ordinary Become Strange..
I See Everything That Is Beginning To Turn..
I Feel My Insides Being To Burn..
I Just Want To Know When Will Everyone Learn..
That Who I Am Now Is Not A Person..
I Need Someone To Notice Before It Begins To Worsen..
I Need Someone To Notice Before I Need Nursing..
Before It Becomes To Late..
And This New Me Determines My Fate..
And Im Left Sitting At The Devil's Gate..
A Little Past Eight..
With Nothing To Do But Reminisce..
On The Past And What I Will Miss..
From The Ordinary Voices To My Mother's Kiss..
So I Look In The Mirror And Wonder Who Is This..
But I Only See This Creature..
It Has Become My Feature..
I Just Wish People Could See Him Too..
Cause I Don't Know What To Do...
I Feel It Moving Through..
My Body And My Soul...
I No Longer Feel Whole..
My Body Feels Like It Has A Gaping Hole..
I Feel Like I Have No Heart...
I Feel Like This Creature Ripped It Apart..
I Just Wish I Could Push Restart...
And Get A Head Start..
To Find A Way To React...
Before This Creature Begins It's Attack..
But Now Its To Late For That..
It's To Late To Go Back..
And Find A Way To Win..
Before This Started To Begin..
But My Body Is Already Infected..
My Body Has Already Been Inspected..
And The Creature's Venom Already Been Injected..
Its About That Time Were I Have A Malfunction...
Its About That Time My Body Begins Self Destruction..
So I Say Bye To My Old Self..
As I Sit On This Shelf..
And Look Normal To Everyone Else...
I Guess This Is The Permanent Me..
I Guess This Is The Fate The Creature Determined It To Be...