Holding on

Keep pushing me away and I might end up liking it there
Away from the blame and stares
Always walking on eggshells
How the fuck did we get here
It wasn't always like this
We used to smile and kiss
Now we argue and split
I miss the old times
Before all this shit
All I got is some Mary Jane left
My thoughts and a pen
Because nobody's listening
You just stare at me blankly
Like I'm speaking a different language
Confused and not in the moment
How much longer can we keep this going
I feel like we're both hurting
But afraid of the ending
We're both wearing thin
Both to the edge on finger tips
How long will we keep on holding