Escapism

Depression.
Am i depressed?
What is depression!
Having a bad day or true life altering perceptions
That make you feel as if your better off somewhere,
anywhere other than
where you are now?

How do we control these feelings
They overwhelm all other senses
making you feel incompetant
at everything you do,
who you are and
where your going.

Is escapism really that bad?

If we were to just decide to leave,
is it not our choice
when it is
as if nothing
is right for us?

is it selfish to want to leave
or is it selfish to
force us to stay
with the guilt trips you push on us?

Everything feels as if it is falling
on my head right now
and no matter how much i try
to better myself
something always creeps back in.

Was i really such a bad person
In a previous life
to deserve this
am i really such a bad person now?

Its not about being rich and having everything
its just about being free
and being able to live!

But living is difficult.

Living is hard.

Escapism is it really a bad thing
or a natural reaction
to the shit around us
making us feel this way
To the point we do just have to
up and leave one way or another?

Sunshine i miss the sunshine i just wish
Oh i just wish i could be in the light.....

But at what cost?