What am I?

Physically imperfect
perfecting the mind
though that's broken too.

Therapy
I tell her about us
how young I was
what I did for you
how you treated me

Abuse...
one word
'Yeah.. that's abuse.'

I tell her more about me
so she can suss out what
not who she's dealing with.
I am words I say on a piece of paper
my name means nothing to her
I'm just to be passed from pillar
to post...

She tells me I have
r e p e a t e d
things
  but I only repeated it
because it's important
"I...get people to gain my trust and then
and then I...throw them away, just like that
because I can. My head feels like it need
not justify why.'

   I have
trouble
  figuring out what
responses are right and where.

I'm impulsive and my body is
full of scars people ask questions about

2 overdoses, 2 months
You're gone now
out of pain
but I hurt
I ache
I miss.

'You have trouble...
regulating your emotions...
don't worry, it's common.'

She used the word 'disorder'
because a young woman with Cerebral Palsy
isn't messed up enough. (?)

I'm scared
of so much
I love and hate
I am loved yet hated.