My biggest fear

I guess you could say my biggest fear is... I don't know being forgotten. I have this fear of being left behind or getting pushed to the back of your mind. Or becoming someone you don't even recognize. The fear of feeling sad and not knowing completely why. Or having intentions to love you but end up making you cry. Fear of living a "happy" life and my parents finding out that it was all just a lie. Losing someone without getting the chance to say goodbye. My biggest fear I guess you could say is... dying without them knowing that I tried.