I don't think I have it in me to love you

Somewhere along the way, I learned of a world with a brown eyed boy who had the sunshine in his smile,
 and I lost my way home.
You would think getting lost would be a scary thing,
but with him it was an escape.

And I found myself never wanting to return.

He had crescent moon eyes and butterfly laughter
that chased away my nightmares
and made breathing a dream come true

And I never wanted to wake up.

He made Flowers grow in between the cracks of sidewalks
and held my bloodstained hands as if they were treasure.
And for once in my life, I didn't feel like a monster.
I wasn't a prince or a princess in the slightest,
yet somehow he didn't see me as a dragon.

And I almost believed that I could have a happy ending.





That boy hadn't just been the sky,
He was my whole goddamn galaxy.


but he was lost to a black hole.

and i think a part of me went missing too.





I tell you these things because
 Somewhere along the way, I learned of a world with that brown eyed boy with starlight smiles
and suddenly couldn't imagine a world without him.

Somewhere along the way,
I fell in love
and
never really fell out.



I tell you this, not so you could be the moon to eclipse my sunshine boy,
but so you'd know how much darkness clouded my eyes when his candlestick heartbeat went 0ut.


It's not that I don't want to love you,
 it's just I don't think I remember how.