Unrealistic thoughts

Unrealistic thoughts run through my mind I wish I could just stop time I've been wasting my time on something that can never be that makes me feel like you still have some type of control over me, unrealistic emotions that I can't seem to control I'm wasting time on something that should of never been now I'm left with all this pain and suffering smouldering in my soul I just don't know which way to go anymore, Unrealistic fate or karma if you will it took hold of me it was a battle over shame and guilt deep down in here I fought hard but you kicked me when I was down I lost the fight for my hearts freedom you gave my crown to someone else, Unrealistic was the passion I felt it was clearly one sided I know I was a fool for believing in you it made no difference in the end you still wanted what you knew you should not have and you took it with both hands freely and willingly, Unrealistic tiredness I'm sick of feeling like this I wish I could make you feel this maybe then you'd want me like I wanted you now I'm burnt out old and tired I don't want to be like this anymore.