Goodbye

A wise man once said there's power in the tongue
so maybe if I say my goodbyes now this pain will soon end
due to the flicker of that powerful pink flesh
 wasn't suicidal for some time but now that time seems to grow further and I'm constantly wanting my days to grow shorter
I feel it's only a matter of time I take matters into my own hands
the constant battle between emotion and thoughts conflicts my heart slowly,
tearing the tissues what's your issue why do u continue to beat day and night knowing my pleads of will u please stop today and free yourself of the never ending pain
Got damn you lungs!!
 begging me to inhale knowing I wish one of u would collapse and strangle my brain as he begs for oxygen
 so since you chose not
 I now clench these black and milds between my fingers
 and destroy u daily with these toxins
 so when will it end naturally?
 idk but I've been thinking and this very moment I can choose to take u
if you would have treated me better life;then maybe I wouldn't fucking hate you!