“MASKED”

It fits so well…
one could hardly tell…

the person behind the disguise…
who is not that wise…

throws her own child away…
not in the trash per se…
almost in the same way
looking disgusted by me every day

to your friends and those who don’t know you…you appear like a caring and devoted mother…
behind closed doors, the nasty names you assign in anger…push me away…
further and further…

it is natural for a child to crave…
the love of the mother…with whom they were raised...

what is that child to then do…
if they have an unbearable…unpredictable… gambling mama like you?

so focused on chasing money…
too blind to see…
a man you considered family made a weekly ritual out of molesting me…
I was in such utter agony…

lost and confused…
scared and all alone…
for 6 years of abuse…

and then into my life…
came a parent I didn’t see…
He said that He has been watching over me…

I asked Him “why did you allow that man to take my virginity?”
He spoke softly…saying only
I have to take you on a journey…
the pain yes, my child will be deep…
no matter what you endure…you never truly face defeat

I am not only your Father, I am your eyes…
I guide your feet…
I need you to walk to a few places with me…

I see strength that you don’t…and you will want to quit…
there will be times when you feel you can not make it…

no matter how quietly from within you doubt…
I promise I will hear that shout…
I am revealing slowly what this is all about…

I need you to show all who see and care to hear
the spirit I have laid inside you…
I see them drawing near…

yes, I saw when you were naughty…
I know your heart…
that, is more nice…
to give the gift I gave you…
came with a hell of a price…

what I promised in the beginning…
was that I was watching over you...
I am about to give you paradise on earth…my daughter…it is long overdue..

so mother removed…
with a GOD that renews…
the words I have given you freely…
how beautifully you use…
in this game…
my child…
how can you lose?