Time to get real (Rap)

Guess I made a decision
But never envisioned
I'd ever be one
Stuck in a re-run
On television.

The same shit
Over and over
As I get
Older and colder

Groundhog Day
Die this way
Watch my life slippin' away
I must be trippin' to stay
Locked in this box of addiction
The clocks say it's time to stop being victim.

It's hard to take charge
Of a fading future
I don't give a damn if it's nature or nurture
Blame my past all I want
It'll haunt me forever.

I have no excuse
For the abuse
Of myself
I can play all the games
But can't blame
No one else.

Been spinnin' in circles
Jumpin' the hurdles
A hamster stuck in a wheel
Too young to die now
I can't say goodbye now
Guess it's time to get real.

Yes I did make a choice
But you silenced my voice
Had me under the trigger
Cause you were much bigger

I was bullied and broken
And you kept on pokin'
Now my God has spoken
Your safe is now open
I've cracked your code
And your gold
Ain't worth two cents
You're now in the past tense
I've put up a fence
Around you.

You're toxic waste
And I've faced
My demons
It's seemin'
I'm breakin' free of these chains
And I've gained
A new sense of purpose
No longer worthless
I'm stronger, my courage
Will carry me through
I'm burying you
You heard this?
Mark you off my checklist
No longer reckless
So get this:

You whip me and beat me
And kick me and treat me
Like a dumb bitch
So I took you to numb it.

Now I've become something,
And you are now nothing.

You have no power
You have no sway,
I'm counting the hours
I'm counting the days.

This relationship's over
Get outta' my head,
My crazy shit's sober
And you are now dead!