Birth of the Immortal Order

  “I know my love ones constantly pray for my forgiveness
But it’s my nature to live like this,
 “In their heart they want me to leave, but refuse to open the door
Treating my ass like an old dicked-out whore,
 
 “Heaven’s trying to keep me alive, because there’re afraid of me dying
With everyone saying hell will take anybody, but their fucking lying,
 “Hell don’t want me, because I’ll try to take over
And heaven consider me too much of a evil motherfucker,
 
 “So I’ll piss on hell and throw my middle finger up in the sky
Cursed to roam the world until I die,
 “That eternal solider living with an eternal scorn
Destroying everything and making the world burn,
 
 “Spreading chaos from one nation to the next
From deadly diseases to taboo sex,
 “Living in exile may seem like a struggle
But the fibromyalgia pain fuels my twisted hustle,
 
 “Straight into my dead beating heart
Ripping my soul apart like a savage-ass shark,
 “My few friends always told me that I still have a prayer
Now their blessed with death-how unfair,
 
 “Painful transformations from one state to the next
From the lowest of existence to a person’s dying breath,
 “With Malachi malice like children of the corn  
Because at the stroke of midnight I am forever reborn,
 
 “Once as a city’s elevated crime rate
Another time as a two-headed poisonous snake,
 “Many times as an abusive single mother
Even on one occasion as a desperate man’s losing lottery number,
 
 “Understand I am the many not truly wanted by anyone  
Not knowing if I will have legs or evaporate under a blazing Sun,
 “While humanity’s pain and lost hope feeds their slaughter
“It gives birth to the Immortal Order.”