Addicted

Why did I take the first dose when I knew the suffering I would endure
With every injection the craving grows and I don't want to find a cure
All I want is more to snort, to inhale, to consume and feel forever high
I am afraid that if I don't get an endless fix, I will crash and slowly die

Such a fool as I could only fantasize of such satisfying intoxication
In my imagination the pleasure fills me with the most sinful fornication
Yet the loneliness spirals in an ever descending vortex of carnal pain
While the stimulation of unrequited desire defines me as insane

I know I will never feel real love and yet I strive to live within my lies
Pretending that masturbating is more than a lonely man's disguise
I dig deep underground where my drug dealer provides me with more dope
Then my red-haired lover arrives in time to fuck me and fill me with false hope