Dark

I am surrounded by loved ones and friends.
My life is going better than expected.
So why do I feel so alone?
Like I'm sitting in the dark.
Why do I feel the need to always be with someone romantically?
I'm not weak, and I am independent.
I still yearn for someone to wrap their arms around me.
Kiss me.
Cuddle with me in bed.
Say I love you and mean it.
I'm not weak, unless wanting to be loved is a weakness.
I'm independent, yet before this I've never been single for long.
I'm not just filling the space with meaningless relationships..
Not all of them.
At least, a few of them were real love.
Four years with the same person seems like real love to me.
Now that it is over, I am happy to be single, yet sad that I have no one at the same time.
Am I afraid to be alone?
No.
I just want to have a special connection with someone again.
That way I wouldn't be siting in the darkness of my mind all alone...