WHY!

Blind, while others see, Wondering aimlessly through life searching for something that apparently can not be perceived through my eyes. Understanding how complex and perfect life is there for there must be some thing out there that gives meaning to  a meaningless existence, still it eludes my heart. With age comes wanting, and longing for the  answers to the questions that  build up what seems like an endless cavern in the center of my heart. I don ‘t want answers to erase the truth that with age comes death but more so to find some kind of semblance of the truth and in doing so finding inner peace and happiness, for this is something I’ve  never experienced, at least not within the boundaries of my adult life without the aid of drugs or alcohol. which  is far from true happiness! It seems so unfair that so many seem happy while others such as myself  are tormented by the idea of a meaningless existence. Searching for peace, maybe I am condemned to never fill the cavern, to never live life with out this one thought that constantly scratches at the walls of my subconscious with that one ever burning question, WHY.