I'll wait.......

I don't know what pushed me to write this, my emotions of missing him maybe?
Almost every night I stay up till midnight to one, hoping to here the knock on my window.
I cry at the thought of missing him, like now.
I feel so alone and selfish.

I miss him so much and I can't stop the tears no matter how hard I try.
I know I'm being childish and clingy but my heart is breaking.
He's constantly in my head, the memories of us in my dreams.
Just hoping that I wake up to him beside me.

My messy hair scattered across the pillows as he sleepily smiles at me.
His arms wrapped loosely around my waist as I cuddle to his chest.
His and my whispers of 'I love you's to each other as he sweetly kissed my forehead.

Then I wake up to face the smothering truth....
He's not with me but in his own world.
A place that I'm scared I won't be able to reach him.
And so I'll sit here and wait till the late hours of the night waiting for him to come and kiss my always falling tears away.