My Addiction

You became my Addiction
My fix to pull me away from reality
At first it was full of laughter and fun
Then slowly it grew dark and I wanted to run
You started to say things to hurt me
Till your actions drove me to my blades
The very thing you asked me to leave
Worse and worse it got
Till I started to cry myself to sleep
With a pocket knife lying beside me
As I stay locked away
Hiding from society
I cant leave
This cell we've created
You became my addiction
The one I couldn't shake
I tried to leave but it hurt more then staying
Even as you push me away
I scramble for my fix
Anything to make you stay
Even though I know you don't love me
I will never leave
Even as I feel my heart breaking
As I start to lose the pieces
Filling with insanity
Trying to satisfy my addiction
All that my heart will ever need
I will not break the promises we created
I'll see it through to our wedding day
The one you picked
The one I wouldn't change.