Selfish and stupid

I tell you I'm depressed and you just ignore it,

I show that I'm upset and you just get mad,

All I want is a sign you care even just a bit,

Is that really asking too much, is that really so bad?


You make a lot of jokes, claim you're just kidding when you insult me,

And say I'm stupid for taking the jokes in a serious way,

But based on tone and context, how kidding can you be,

How many times can you make the claim before the joke starts to decay?


But when I bring myself down,

You get mad and say I'm trying to annoy you,

You move away from me so I'm not something you have to be around,

But that isn't my goal, it's just what I believe and I don't know what else to do,


Maybe I'm being selfish and stupid for thinking anyone would or should care,

Maybe I should hide it all away, maybe it's more fair...