Cast Away

Words cannot express  
The solemn darkness  
That consumes my heart.  
Opening the window  
To my soul  
--Rushing in  
A phantom pain  
It cannot be extinguished  
 
I long for  
Companionship  
--The yin to my yang  
But these feelings  
Are only met with  
Judgement and denial  
 
It gets hard to breathe  
I feel like I’m drowning  
In a sea of saline.  
I stand up  
Only to be struck down  
Once more  
Again and  
Again  
 
So naïve  
Too trusting  
--This is who I am  
Wandering  
Through the desert,  
Lost  
I happen upon a stream,  
Ladling the cool water  
To my parched lips  
 
Before the onset of relief  
The water turns to sand  
In my mouth.  
But I continue to pour  
Allowing the sand  
To fill my lungs,  
Making it hard  
To breathe again  
 
This time I stay down  
This time I don’t get up  
The sand cascades over me  
Forming a tomb  
Where I used to greet others  
They now walk over me.  
Unbeknownst to them  
No longer in this plane  
Of existence  
Lost