cheating on myself

I let things slide it doesnt hurt me.
That's what I say but inside I'm really filled with hate and furry.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore, all I know is that im banging at my door.
Someone take this chance and erase me, better do it quick and hurry before I go crazy.
I don't want to keep hurting people anymore, that's what I scream silently before I go out the door.
Hello teacher can you see me do you notice me, I'm the one thats done early so I can finish dreaming.
When I wake up feel like crying, because the dreams that I remember are the ones that I am dying