Sometimes

So we were like 4 years in
When the bad times did begin
We're arguing about things
That never seem to end
About money, about uni
About things between you and me
That you never seem to let go
No matter how much time does go
Passed
It's the past, let's keep it in the past
If we dwell on these issues
Then we surely cannot last
But it wasn't always this way
So let me relay
A story of yesterday
Before her heart did stray

You see, there was nothing in this world
That as a tag team we couldn't do
Just put our minds & our hearts together
Let's kill it, me and you
Like the days we spent all day
Getting baked watching Twin Peaks
I quoted every single word
you didn't mind and that's neat

Like the time we rocked up
To my uncles wedding
I flicked the joint out of the car window
And it landed into some spider webbing
We did circles around the car park
Trying for a space to park in
Flicked the joint off the webbing
Nobody saw, and that's winning

You see we smoked a lot of weed
Which caused many a problem
Smoking past every single issue
Instead of working on and solving em
Because it's an easier option
Problems soon forgotten
Hidden anger, secret resentment
Pushed down to the bottom

And every time we do this it feels like all the work we've put into this thing is wasted
Feels like just like in Lost things would have been better if we'd only communicated
Instead we take the stones we've been paving our way with and threw them at each other in haste
And by the time it came to relay said stones we'd forgotten their purpose or place

It Suffices to say
These stones we do lay
Could be Rome someday
As long as we don't stray
So let's pave the way
For a brighter day
But things don't always work out
So now I must say

Sometimes I wanna go back
Through time and space
And find the past version of me
And slap that douche in the face
And advise him how much better
Life truly can be
Learn to think once again
And just set yourself free
From the chains
That breed mundane
Every day is the same
I'm just telling you these words
To try and save us both the pain
But she's grown in a way
That leaves you in yesterday
Life gets better
You'll be ok

It was her time to grow
And I guess we were too slow
To put a fix to the problems
That started to overthrow
All the dreams that we were building
Well I guess there was a ceiling
I thought the ceiling was much higher
Yeah that ceiling was misleading

You see for a little while there
It seemed like we were getting better
She was starting to become independent
And was really getting her life together
Her panic attacks were becoming fewer
But stated to feel I never knew her
This new version of my girlfriend
That she was claiming was the new her

So now I'm defeated and beaten
My body feels drained
I can tell by the look on her face
She's beyond feeling the same
And I can't say I didn't see it coming
I'd have shouted spoilers
If I had the energy
The girl grows up and leaves the loser
This time the loser is me

But you've gotta give me a green mushroom
You have no idea how hard I tried
It's not my fault that once I got to bowser
I fell in the lava and died
But that was my last continue
And no more extra lives
Instead, I lay back on my bed
And close my water filled eyes

And think back on our times together
And work out where it all went wrong
And what I'd done to tear apart
A love I considered to be strong

Because at the end of the day we all think we're our stories main protagonist
like everything has been leading
and building towards this
perfect moment in time
where you'll once again be mine
and our hearts can realign
And everything will be  wicked

But
If I'm not the joker
And you sure ain't Harley Quinn
And this love did soon end
As sure as this love did begin
And I hope we remain friends
But wait for this broken heart to mend
I've seen you with your new boyfriend
And so good blessings I do send
And
I don't regret the time
That we spent together
I just wish I took the time
To learn to be better
And to be someone
You couldn't push aside
And to be the one you run to
When you need somewhere to hide

But I failed you. But more importantly I failed myself. I spent so long trying to hold on to  familiarity
That I couldn't see it dying before my very eyes.
But that's how love is I guess
What you think is a test
Can often be the stress
Of a dying mess
A love that just needs to be laid to rest
And my only regret is the happiness
That I've absolutely missed
Holding on
to nothing
If only we ended this thing before we did. If only we ended this thing when we both knew we should have.
But it's cool
Adventure Time is on