Crazy

I think something is wrong with me
I have entered a world, I do not feel comfortable in
I think something is trying to destroy me
It is making me sick, and fucking crazy
I think something, is wrong with me


I was carefree, and lively, and energetic, and happy
I was not tied down or committed, I was just what I wanted, when I wanted to be
I was sexual and dominant, in control and life was in my hands: simple and free
I never cared what was out there: I only cared about what was here, around me
I was open, and honest, and sure of myself, and rested: I was healthy and I felt sexy


NOW……….


I feel like a hungry, agitated, sexually suppressed, depressed, overly stressed… crazy bitch!
I need him
I want him
My unrelenting demanding body, will not calm unless I have him…Inside me, get inside of me
I need him
I want him
It’s really dangerous right now for my mental conditioning, I am literally breaking physically


I have become jealous and jealousy, has gotten into me