I ask this question

I'm alone again
Strangling the darkness inside of me
Self harm huh? Never thought that it would come to this
But this goddamn brain won't let me rest and all I am is in my head
An unpleasant feeling if you ask me  
Schizophrenia hangs around my neck like a noose
This must surely be the end because this rope is becoming a close friend
I walk to the fridge for a midnight snack & sit on the couch
I close my eyes  for a few minutes and open them again Only to see Death before me
With bony fingers he reaches out
Should I join him? or reject him like I've rejected everyone I've ever met