Isolation (bystandard effect)

i pledge for insanity, goes down a far drawn out line, with the life of a guy (psssssst that's meeeee) who just wanted to belong without a care in the world. Born through as he pulled through the days, he found himself more alone, the most he's ever been who could possibly save him from this isolation? Where can he escape the no man's, get away from being pushed away, not find the way maybe I am needing a little more Jesus in my life but, it seems I am a little drifted away. Speaking about being a drifted away, like how I am doing this writing right now, there is no really any sense but I am just seeing how far I can go without stop what I am really interested in is who will stop me.......... its hard though when your isolated, in this life, there is this sense of a need to belong. I learn that in psy (psychology) today; also the class I passed so, must know what I am talking about when I say that people with low self esteem have a higher chance on complimenting suicide but I am not gonna lie, the thought has passed by me. Had the feeling of dread in the early AM its 2:50 right now and I am isolated with thoughts writing my heart away; till I can no longer make words (make) sense.  I dread the (feel), I want your (touch) and you just clearly see he who has been out of it lately, so pull me out and ill be sure to get you back (I never forget people just names). Your reading just like wtf but hey you wont say anything right? its called the bystander effect look it up.