The Start of A Relationship

 
It all changed one night when I called you from Kurtains Farm where I was staying overnight. I had had a long day driving and seeing clients and apart from the bar there was nothing to do but stare at empty walls. I called you when I knew you would be in bed and expect no other calls. Your voice was soft and warm. I asked if could talk openly to you about anything and everything.
“Of course you said”
“I do not want you to be embarrassed by anything I say and I want you to be completely honest and open with me”
“No problem”
We then talked and talked and talked thoroughly enjoying hearing each other’s voice. That night we called each other many times late into the early morning. You knew what I was doing and I knew what you were doing but we did not need to let on.
“I really like you”
And I really like you”
“I trust you”
“And I trust you”
“Just imagine for a moment how you would feel if I replaced the words like and trust with a more accurate word”
“What is that?”
I whispered “Love”
“Think about that”
“Could you do the same for me?”
“Yes” you whispered.
“Do you know what I am doing right now as I talk to you?”
“Do you want me to guess?”
“Are you doing what I think you are doing as you talk to me?”
“I might be”
I could have talked to all night trying to tell you what you were doing to me, my head was spinning, I had fallen head over heels for you and I could not wait to get back to see you.
The next day was a blur I really paint no attention to the clients woes my head was full of images of last night. I was thinking about what you were doing as I was talking to you and how powerful you made me feel.
I called you from Birmingham to say I was on my way back and I was going to come straight to see you. I was so excited and aroused I had a stomping great big erection that made driving really uncomfortable. I kept calling you to give progress reports but really because I wanted to hear your voice. My stomach was full of butterflies and I felt full of anticipation. I just wanted to see you, to hear you to smell you to touch you to be alone with you to say the millions of things running through my head.
I knew that you were waiting for me and I wondered what you would be wearing and how you would prepare for me. Had you gone to the gym to do your aerobics class so that you would be flushed and vibrant or had you just taken a long hot soak in a bubble bath so that your skin would be soft and fragrant.
I ran through in my mind what I hoped you would be wearing from head to toe it was black of course. My mind was racing

By the time I arrived all was quiet, the fire was on and the TV was on low. The atmosphere was electrifying and we both looked flustered.
“Did you mean what you said last night?”
“Did you”
“Yes I did”
“Me too”
Our double meaning conversations were over. You were dressed beautifully and your perfume was just right. We had skirted around suggestive conversations all last night or so it seemed. I felt safe with you and you felt safe with me. We were both painfully aware of our unhappy marriages but that didn’t matter right now.
It was as if we were coming together for the very first time. We both felt daring and free, sure the problems and baggage of our past was still there, but in this moment it really didn’t matter.
Just as one cannot judge a book by the cover so too can you not judge people by their appearance? Looks can absolutely be deceiving. I had in my head this image of this perfect woman that was the envy of all around her and yet, somehow, only I could perceive her unhappiness.
It was even more curious to see how people actually were angry at her unhappiness because she seemed to have everything and how could a person like that be unhappy.
However, happiness is so relative and above all subjective.
We tend to want to decide for others what they should be happy about.
Happiness is a state of mind and it takes more than great looks or economic tranquillity or even good health.
Happiness is accompanied by all the opposing emotions which must be in perfect balance and finding that balance is truly a complex journey.
I sat opposite you glancing at your knees which seemed locked together or were they. I noticed every time you moved how your knee seems to relax and every now and then I momentarily caught a glimpse of you inner thigh as you changed position. You caught me looking and then leaned back raised you foot a little and gave me a full glimpse of your panties before adjusting yourself and closing your knees.
I felt incredibly aroused as I talked to you and my erection was so uncomfortable I had to move.
“Is it Ok if I come over and sit next to you?”
“No not at all”
I moved over to you with a powerful erection in my pants which I know you were aware of because I had spotted you earlier eyeing it mischievously whilst I was looking up your skirt.  
“Would you mind if I kissed you”
“No I wouldn’t”  
You said with an air of confidence and softness. You had just made your move with grace and elegance from here on in there was no turning back

This was your time to take a lead of faith. In front of you was a man who you felt special things about, he excited and aroused you and you knew that you really turned him on.
The reigns holding you back you had removed and you felt so good at feeling a woman who was desired and appreciated.
Your heart was beating you felt alive excited and sensuously moist. This was your moment to take that confident leap as a woman fearlessly refusing to contemplate rejection.
This was the man the one for me my man the man I had been waiting for all my life.
The power of want was overwhelming it was the moment it was the time to say yes yes yes yes yes I’m going to take that leap of faith into the unknown, I have a myriad of doubts but at this moment they are so unimportant I want to taste this man I want this man I need this man to hold me to take me in his arms and hold me tightly.
I want to smell him and run my fingers through his hair, I want him to touch my face and stroke my neck. I want him to run his hands over my body and touch me softly.
I need him to passionately kiss me and slowly reach for my breasts which are tingling for his touch. I want to feel his body close to mine and run my fingers over his bare chest.
I want to undo his shirt and shower kisses all over his chest. I want to suck on his nipples until he begs me to stop. I want to reach down and hold his hard cock in my hands. I want to feel him throbbing and pulsating just for me.
I want him to expose my breasts and gaze on them admiringly before kissing my breasts and sucking me because this is my man and I want to satisfy his every need.
I want him to reach under my skirt and be pleased that I am wearing black panties just for him because I know he likes black.
I want him to feel the wetness of my panties and then pull them aside to feel the downy hair of my cunt. I want him to slide a finger into my hot soaking hole and then another finger and then three fingers because I am so excited.
I want him to kiss me whilst finger fucking me into one orgasm after another.
I want him to cum in hands and to totally release himself to me.
Now this is my time.

I will never forget the electrifying moment I lay on your settee and gently took your glasses off. For the first time in my life I stared into the eyes of the most beautiful women I had ever seen, it was as if you were drinking me in you looked absolutely breathtakingly stunning and I fell hopelessly in love with you from that very second.
Your eyes were alluring and for the first time I saw the woman in you, you made me feel amazing.
I felt as if I was seeing right into your soul and that had been searching for me all your life.
I held you and softly began to kiss you as our lips met electricity filled my every sense.
Our tongues gently played and our hearts raced as we became breathless.
It was urgently needed but desperately unhurried, wow, I can say that backwards, wow what a feeling.
Looking back I now realise that love is when you look into someone's eyes, and see everything you need.
You looked so vulnerable and sexy and when I touched your breast you just released yourself to me. We kissed over and over again kisses that were gifts to each other as our tongues gently played. My hands roamed all over you and you ran you fingers over my head and down my back.
This was my time to take a lead of faith. In front of me was a woman who I felt special things about, she excited and aroused me and I knew that she really turned me on.
The reigns holding me back you had removed and I felt so good at feeling a man who was desired and appreciated.
My heart was beating I felt alive excited and pre cum soaked my cock. This was my moment to take that confident leap as a man fearlessly refusing to contemplate rejection.
This was the woman the one for me my woman the woman I had been waiting for all my life.
The power of want was overwhelming it was the moment it was the time to say yes yes yes yes yes I’m going to take that leap of faith into the unknown, I have a myriad of doubts but at this moment they are so unimportant I want to taste this woman I want this woman I need this woman to hold me to take me in her arms and hold me tightly.
I want to smell her and run my fingers through her hair, I want her to touch my face and stroke my neck. I want her to run her hands over my body and touch me softly.
I need her to passionately kiss me and slowly reach for my nipples which are tingling for her touch. I want to feel her body close to mine and run my fingers over his breasts.
I want to undo his blouse and shower kisses all over his breasts. I want to suck on her nipples until she begs me to stop. I want to reach down and hold her soaking wet cunt in my hands. I want to feel her cunt throbbing and pulsating just for me.
I want her to expose my chest and gaze on admiringly before kissing and sucking my nipples because this is my woman and I want to satisfy her every need.
I want to reach under your skirt and feel delighted that I she had made the effort to wear black panties just for me because she knows I likes black.
I want to feel the wetness of your panties and then pull them aside to feel the downy hair of your cunt. I want to slide a finger into my hot soaking hole and then another finger and then three fingers because I am so excited.
I want him to kiss her whilst finger fucking her into one orgasm after another.
I want him to cum in your hands and to totally release myself to you.
Now this is my time.

This was true passion and neither of us wanted this breakthrough to stop. I felt so aroused that you made me cum whilst I was kissing you it was a powerful and explosive orgasm unlike anything I have ever experienced before, premature ejaculation, not at all, it was a release and a celebration of our new love.
To give you a real sensed of context let me tell you as little story.
That is how profound that moment I took your glasses off and looked into the soul of your eyes was to me. I was the start of my life for now I had a purpose and someone to live for.
I lifted you up into my arms so that I could kiss you tenderly. Some kisses are urgent but this kiss was soft and yielding it lingered on and we both were intensely aroused. I melted as I looked into your eyes they are sensational and as you innocently looked at me I kissed you again this time harder and with intensity.
A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous. Your arms clasped my head and we breathed deeply our hearts pounding. “I love you Clare my special lady” and you replied “I love you John never leave me” I felt shocked at the thought that feared I would leave you, so I kissed you long and passionately until breathless. I could no more leave you that kill myself and deep down you know that.
It is essential to find a balance in life. Many times that balance is due to the people that surround us and that hold us firm to the ground and without whom we would float into perdition.

From that very moment of sensual ecstasy when you took that leap of faith and placed your total trust in me that I would look after you the lifetime bond was made. I held you hand as you were suspended above all the issues in your life naked and exposed but you knew I would never let go of your hand because I loved you and you loved me the rest would take care of itself in its own good time.
I don’t know what I’ve done
Or if I like what I’ve begun
But something told me to run
And honey, you know me
It’s all or none
There were sounds in my head
Little voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh, and I found myself listening
Because I don’t know who I am
Who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don’t know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
She will never love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain’t leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside
Because I don’t know who I am
Who I am I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don’t know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
She will never love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
And I won’t be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself
And so I say to you
This is what I have to do
Because I don’t know who I am
Who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don’t know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
Because she will never love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood