Insurmountable Feelings

I can’t……I know because I’ve tried
To clear your beautiful image from my mind
I want to forget because it pains me to remember
Remember who you are and what we were together
But now you’re gone leaving me in the lonely pit you once took me out of
I know it’s my fault you’re not here
I should have fought harder
But back then I wasn’t into you like I am now
It's my fault you’re the giving me the cold shoulder
You’re so distant like the earth is from the sun
All I want to do is to hold you
And feel your lips against mine
Just to hear you saying my name again would be enough
I remember the few times we had together
It's like I'm suffocating knowing they are no more
I'm not sure why It's killing me to feel all this
Just last year I was sure you were wrong for me
And now all of a suddenly all I want is you
I know I probably hurt you the last time
And yeah you probably hate me for it
But I'm sorry because I miss you and you’ll probably never know it
All I can do is write poems in tears
Cause I'm too afraid to say these words to you
Maybe it will only hurt me if it end up you don’t care what I now have to say
Well sigh it doesn’t matter because I know this pain will stop
And sooner or later I’ll feel better.
Just got to keep my heart open and my head held high
Cause even thou I hate Valentine’s Day
I’ll be happy tomorrow if just once I don’t think of your face
Just this once I wish my heartache will just give me space….