I am drowning mind is fucked

I just felt a big wave of sadness
And i am on the edge of breaking down
Maybe it's all over now because i, i
Don't know how much longer can i keep myself together
Running around are the deep dark thoughts inside my head
Oh the demons pulling me inside like quicksand
While i am struggling to breathe
In me no one ever believed
No one ever appreciated me
God i hope this all is a horrific hallucination

My heart is a little too heavy
I can't hold it together
Never did the pieces ever heal
Does it ever stop?
I know everyone feels this way
Sometimes it just never ends
Fighting through the drought
Utter destruction going around
Could it get better if i just close my eyes?
Keeping me away
Every inch away
Do i get to breathe without all this?

Now let's see how this will end
Only if i have enough strength
To make it through these days
Harder and harder it gets
I can't do anything but wait
No i can't even help myself
Get through this

Who is looking out for me
Oh please just come out and show me
Remind me of the good things
Kiss these wrists that are so broken
Scars are all so fresh

My heart is a little too heavy
I can't hold it together
Never did the pieces ever heal
Does it ever stop?
I know everyone feels this way
Sometimes it just never ends
Fighting through the drought
Utter destruction going around
Could it get better if i just close my eyes?
Keeping me away
Every inch away
Do i get to breathe without all this?