A large weight lifted

We arrived on the same day,
i'm sure you felt alive.
not sure of my fate,
I wanted to die.

You were born full of promise,
no imperfections,
no reason to cry.

Looking at you makes me sick.
I can't help but think of what should have been.
Thanks to you I got so many birthday gifts,
among them unsteady legs and two black eyes.

You have so many reasons to live,
but still you cut me down.
I have so many ill wishes to give you,
like hoping that you drown ever slowly.

I never get comfort,
though I am still sorry.
my anger rises to the surface,
only when you make me suffer.

I hate you and I love my friends.
with so much love to give I can hate now and again.
I hope you're sorry and realize what you've done.
I won't let this go, we will never be one again.

You are my brother,
I ask for another.
A twin and not a doppleganger,
someone who looks like me in the mirror.