I don't know

today I can't tell what to do
I can't think of what to do
There is no motivation theres no emotion
I have no remorse
I try to feel proud but it just gets worse
shame is unknown to me
pride is a sin
then what can I do?
Im tired  Im bored
I can't take it anymore
Its a dream or a nightmare
I don't care
It still feels unfair
why have I forgotten how it felt to laugh?
be happy, enjoy life, it all sounds like the past
honored will I be if I see such mirrage again