Goodbye Old friend

I rest my head
And find myself
swamped with thoughts of you.
Unexpectedly
I am thrown back,
Memories suddenly burst
much like the water filling my eyes
I fight the tears.
And think over the years
They always find a way
To be reminisced.

The memories we have,
They form a scar in my heart.
Because in the end you did depart.
I cannot understand for the life of me
Why you left without as much of a "goodbye"

Perhaps because I hate them
Perhaps because it would hurt
Perhaps because in the end
It never mattered to you.

You became a stranger over night
We never even had a single fight
And it takes all my might
Not to chase after you.

What hurts most is...
Out of everyone
I never thought it would be you
To leave

Your memory causes such a pain
Such a hurt
Even now i fight tears.
But I have to let you go
I have to say goodbye
Even with no reason why.

Here it is:
If only to save myself.
You were the truest
The most reliable
Most amazing
Best friend.
Goodbye Cole.