Struggling in New Skin

Seeming to be stuck here.
Right here.
In this new, yet traditional place.
In a new skin, showing a new face.
Common sense screams this is right.
Still my heart whispers to walk away from the light.
Walk away and crawl back inside.
It's so seductive. You're mine.
Ignoring the voice is becoming hard.
Everyday exhausted from my latest spar.
For something so right and pure.
It sure does suck not feeling you anymore.
Since my absence began...
Eating and sleeping has become a scam.
Everyone tells me this new page needs to turn.
Despite the constant spin in the churn.
My mind goes racing as I listen some more.
Maybe it was right to walk out that door.
Who knows where my future will lead....?
All I know is so far this new skin isn't a dream.