The Journey of a Troubled Teenager

No matter how hard life gets I can't let it get to me
I don't want no one to see me down,I must continue to smile
My days are only begining and  I should look torwards the future
But I crawl into a small corner and fear my future,but why?
The shit I go through and the things I feel
Make my skin crawl and the clouds gather around
Cloudy days are now here to stay forever I guess
NO,NO,NO,NO,not no more I must not GIVE Up!
I'm the only one who can help myself out of this place
If I see your hand reaching out to help me I'll take it
And put it against my heart
I want you to help me through this hell
I smile and wonder,well they ever know that I get sad too
I joke around and make other people happy,but why cant I be happy?
Millions of whispers I hear and I listen to all
I have to keep my head up,so I know whats coming at me
I have to be strong and I have to finish the ugly days
NO longer must I be down and be serious
I deserve to smile again and enjoy this beautiful life
Seeing everything different doesn't attract me no more
I used to see everything moving
My soul is lost and awaiting for guidence
Im its guide,so I need to get back on track
Im not only doing this for me,but for my friends and family
I must avoid the bad life and go onto the right path
I need to find the right route and never get off it
I open my eyes and Begin my journey
Wish me luck