I feel so suicidal

I feel so sad.
My eyes fill with tears
as loneliness reappears.
I wait for my time to end, hoping
for my coffin to descend
into the dirt, so cold and empty.
I don't want to be here anymore.
My body has become so sore.
This feeling just won't end,
it only extends.
I cry and cry, to the point
where my nose is stuffed and
i'm red eyed.Oh, just let me die.
It's all in my mind and it won't leave.
I'm tired of fighting, i'm tired of
being told i'm just some lie.
I'm not fine, iv'e asked for help
over a thousand times.
Yet here i am, suffering in silence,
taking in the blame,that i'm a fault,
that i'm a mistake, just another
worthless fake.