Brings Me Down Inside

It’s like it has its time
It comes and goes both suddenly.
I have no control over it,
All I can do is fight it or cede to its solemn ways.
Fighting is hard
But giving up is easy.
At most, I find myself deep in its depths.
It becomes me and I have accepted it as a part of who I am.
In its essence:
I feel nothing
I want nothing
And nothing matters to me anymore.
I become a different person,
A person no one knew I could be.
I walk around as if a dark cloud follows me pouring rain on my fragile being.
I allow myself to be this way
I’m a weak and fragile soul
My hands are not strong enough to tear the walls of depression that has me in its hold.
My heart is at the mercy of this monster
It brings me down inside
All I can do is hope that maybe one day
By some miracle it will all just go away and subside.
Till then I'll go on like this but just until i die.