Just a girl

I’m frightened
of what I cannot see
of the pain inside
that won’t go away.

I like coral pink
And my nails shiny
The sun in the sky
And the birds melody;
I love dressing up
Just to see your eyes flicker
The smell of perfume
Sparkle of fireworks
I love cuddles that never end
Being curled up in your body
It’s safe there.

I try to be stone
And not let it get to me
My silence a retreat
Not you personally.

But today I’m just a girl
A wide-eyed possum...
Just your girl.


*I wrote this recently waiting for a second round of tests to be completed from an earlier operation.